Mexico, 24, friendly, hardworking, sarcastic, funny, messy, self conscious
She never showed up… is not like my trip was to see her, it was at the beginning but then it became more personal, it was personal, lots of thinking next to the sea.
She did told me she was not going, she apologized, we talked, but like everything it only lasted that night and the day after… then a couple of text in between over the week… She said she wanted to visit, I don’t believe it anymore, I get hurt every time I dare to believe she will actually come and visit me instead of going somewhere else to visit someone else
I had a dream about her the other night, about us… about the ideal future, who am I kidding????
I’m done, is hard but I have to be done, I won’t text unless she texts… and even then I’m not sure if I’ll reply, I’m still thinking, considering…
We are seeing each other on Saturday, I’m scared…
I’m not quite sure what she expects of this meeting, last time I kind of knew or I had an idea… I’m quite clueless now
I want to invite her to dinner and I want to kiss her… but should I?
I sent her an I love you text in Saturday’s crazy party…. I had a few drinks on me, and I made out with this guy, I felt guilty because I remembered about her, so I texted her, she never texted back, I guess she knew I had a drinks on me…
Today we’ve been talking a bit like old times… I realize how much I still miss her everyday
I’m still clueless
